Rays of Hope

I just couldn't help but blurt this out........ just got a funny feeling that all of a sudden, I just felt like somebody who woke up from a long sleep coupled with a long and a very bad dream.... And just woke up to myself that only I and I alone (together with God, of course) could solve all of my dilemmas and problems, that the solution are just around the corner.... it's just that I dozed off too much, that I thought I already have lost my strength to wield this tide of misfortunes in my life and put it back into order, as it were before......

And I also realized that I still have destinies to fullfill, that I cannot run away from them forever, that one day, I have to face them, face the reality and take the challenge of God upon me.... and that will eventually make me fulfilled and satisfied...... And I never have lost the strength, nor the talents that will aid me to bring me back to reality and take my destiny..... it may not be of my own choosing but I know and feel that by doing so, I will be gratified, and I will have the peace that I desire......

Indeed no one can do things lying or sitting down.... I just thought that I already have become the weakling that I am, of my own making.... I have brought myself onto a dark dimension that has been making me blame everything else for my own failures, aggravating problems and dilemmas........

Now, my eyes are open again... it is time to come out of the slumber.......

I thank those friends who helped me be able see things back as they were before... for their arguments.....for making me feel "Hey, I still am needed in this World!"

For making me realize that my talents and gifts doesn't just belong to me.... it belongs to everyone else who needs it at the proper hour..... Indeed I once made a difference....... it's about time to get out of the flow and bring back that difference, for everyone to see, and to follow, and make them believe that making a difference still works in a broken world.....

Again I thank you Lord.... for taking away the cataract in my eyes....... for healing my paralysis...... for letting me muster my strength again......

MADly in Love......

Whew..... Valentine's Day is just around the corner.... which doesn't excite me anymore by the way.... Any couple (or anyone, whether brothers, sisters, family, friends, etc. ) who would want to profess their love for each other should not in anyway be limted on February 14......

Well, its a day of great income for the florists who jack up the prices of Cutflowers and make a killing profit in just one day, for restaurants to get filled up with people, for Hotels (and even motels, mind you, hehehe) get filled up to the brim......... around the metropolis you see the reminder of "Hey, it's Valentine's Day, why not show your love to your special someone/s by giving Him/He this and that...."

One Big Commerical Bullshit, as I see it..... just another day to make money...... I just saw the Lovapalooza airing on TV a while ago, and there at Roxas Blvd, Pampanga, Davao and Cebu, people have flocked to "break" the guiness record set here last year by Pinoys...... I just couldn't help but wonder why would people need to go out into such places to loudly show their love through a kiss and at the same time ride onto the commercialized concept of "love"......making history so they say.....

Now if one would just imagine a small place in China and suddenly alll of its residents go out and smooch each other..... You could just imagine at least a million Chinese in one place all at the same time kissing.... so the "record" is easily thrown away......

You start to think when kissing, or giving of gifts, begin to mask the concept of love..... when things that you are to give to your someone are just picked of from the shelf and easily paid at the counter and then be given to someone as a "Sign of love"......... when a kiss is publicly shown for everyone to see and made just a sign that "Hey, this girl/guy is mine..."

Forgive me for being such a Valentine spoiler, it's just that I don't see any reason why it has to come to a point that it is totally magnified and marketed to the point that it already has lost its spirit.......

Please be reminded that I 'm not saying all people who celebrate it just to it for the sake of the day..... I still know that there are people who still has the spirit in them......

Cheers!!!

Issues, issues, issues

Whew, did learn the hard way of setting this thing up, but hey, its's my first time to post here and I can be free to post any and all angsts that I may have about and among things in this short life that we have..... things that put color to our lives and make it bearable, exciting, tough......

A life full of experience........

Special thanks to haiku for pushing me to try this one out..... so I can let my mind speak, without the inhibition or taboo caused by fear or rejection, hatred.....